2009-11-22
17:40:18
17:40:18
<3
It is you that holds me up every freakin' night. Even thought we don't speak to eachother that very moment, it is you that keep me awake till the early morning. I think about every single thing you have said to me, you have written to me. Analyzes it. What did he really mean with that? I think about how I constantly feel vulnerable, how easy you can crush me. Make me feel like I'm not worth a damn thing, that everything is my fault. My problem is that I care to much. I care to much about you - and there is nothing I can do about it. I have said to you so many times that I don't wanna feel like this. I don't wanna miss you all the time we're apart. Cause I know that you don't miss me. Or at least I don't think so. Why do you not effort as much as you did before? Now when I really trying. It makes no sence in my head anymore... What can I say to you? To make it all better? How can I make the words come out in the right way, so you can understand? I really, really like you. And I know that you don't like when I'm to pushy or when I think that your mad at me, and you isn't and I ask you if you are and you becomes angry. I know that you have said to me to read the history, when I'm insecure if you like me or not. But still, I can't be sure. You ask me what I want to do. But I ask yourself the same question: What do you want? I'll have to find the right moment. To talk to you... To find out. I can't live like this anymore. Or can I? I don't know. We'll see how it all ends... This is what's keeping me awake every single night. Just for you. I don't know how to do anymore..
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